blog

read about my boring and/or shitty life, idk. i feel like im just being some angsty teenager and dramatic but im pretty sure im not. i think thats called impostor syndrome

birthday - 3/14/24

15th birthday was pretty much wrecked

honestly i wanted to write a post sooner but didnt bc i was sleepy

:( - 3/10/24

woke up at like 12 because of daylight savings time, was weird af

IIMMM LLOOSSING MY SHIITTTT - 3/03/24

i am become SUCH A TOXIC FUCKING BITCH just like my mom.

my mom grounded me - 3/02/24

currently writing this in secret (or rather being online in secret because this whole website is secret already) because im grounded

autism - 2/27/24

randomly reminded myself of how my mom said no matter if i was autistic she would still treat me how she treats me now because i need to “learn how to function in our society” like i would learn shit

i accidentally called someone a slur - 2/25/24

i accidentally called someone i thought was cool a slur (sh*male) and now i feel horrible cuz i didnt know it was a slur

thats all

i cant share my feelings here - 2/23/24

i cant share my feelings here because im scared of being called "weird" even though its my website and im not ashamed that much of anything

untitled 3 - 2/23/24

still sick af skipped school all week and having to reschedule dentist appointment, probably wont go to school next week either.

been working on the website some, idrk what to do for when the main content of the page ends bc i dont want the sidebar to just keep going forever.

why am i such a problem? - 2/19/24

first off, im sick right now, cold or something. idfk.

that will probably be important ish later.

anyways, it feels like every time i say something i make someone (especially my parents) upset.

untitled 2 - 2/19/24

it appears i ruined the chances of us going to japan on vacation

it would have been the first time i even left the state.

untitled - 2/18/24

so tired and so worried

but why worry when death is near to everyone

and we end up in the same grave anyways

shouldn't these be my "golden years"?